It’s the last Matango in Paris, constant reader, the dream of SHIPtember is over for this year. I realize there is still about a week left on the calendar but it will not be enough time to make any meaningful progress. I spent the last week hammering on the build, trying to adopt one of Pico’s designs, but it just lead to greater frustration. I can’t really blame the failure on lack of parts availability in orange, the challenging subject matter, or even the divided time between building and blogging. At the end of the day I simply lost interest and became ambivalent about the model and that is the death of any creative project. The comments both on the Manifesto and Flickr gave me a boost of energy last week, but it quickly went south when I couldn’t find the right way to push the design forward. Sometimes models just don’t work out, and you have to know when to cut your losses.
Many of you suggested I abandon the time restrictions of the contest and proceed at my own pace, to value the ‘art’ over the collective experience. That’s a reasonable take on things and normally I’d be on board with that course of action, but SHIPtember is all about embracing restrictions and going through the same pressure-cooker as everyone else. What I’m not willing to do, however, is push forward a piece of crap just meet a deadline. I chose what Simon calls “the hard road” but my orange Ford Pinto couldn’t handle the action and it sits broken down on the side of that hard road. Matango definitely had potential and I’ve saved the legs with an eye towards revisiting the concept some day, but for now it’s back to the bin and back to the blog.
So in the end I chose the Manifesto over the Matango, and that has me thinking about the future of both activities as it relates to my free time. There is no way I could consider another project the size of say Bucharest and remain committed to this place. Right now I don’t have a strong urge to build, so running the blog is a nice way to stay connected to the hobby and indulge my interest in writing. Long term though, I’m not so sure how to strike the right balance.
Best of luck to the rest of the SHIPwrights who are still in the fight! I applaud your perseverance and I now I’ll have the time to encourage you from the sidelines.